11/29/2005

Oh so sore!

So let me tell you how sore I am from yesterday's workout....OW OW OW!! I knew I would be sore so that's why I didn't do a "full" workout. Sheesh I hurt. I can barely move! :) But through all the pain, it sure makes ya feel good about yourself! I have to say that a few months ago I rededicated myself to improving my bod....and overall I'm really impressed!! I'm finally doing things for me these days. No more adjusting my schedule for someone else, no more altering my plans...just me!!! It's really nice I have to admit. Sure there are days that are better than others. There are even days (or moments) that set me back a few spaces, but I'm moving forward!!! And that's really all that matters! As Rascal Flatts would say "I'm gonna stop lookin back and start movin on....learn how to face my fears." (hey....atleast I'm on the "being fixed" road this time...instead of that damn broken one!!!)

So I went to, what I thought was my last Tuesday, class today. I get there (after a mad dash race because I was running late), and discover that there aren't many cars in the parking lot (like normal). I think to myself..."oh no, please tell me that everyone else is wrong and I'm right...that we really have class today and I didn't come all the way over here.") Ok, ok...I was wrong...I read the schedule wrong and we had our last Tuesday class a few weeks ago!...Apparently I wasn't the only one who thought that either...(girls at my table....we should pay more attention!! :) ) We do however have our last class (I'm way excited) this Saturday....We are almost there!!!

11/28/2005

Back in Fort Worth~

Well I'm back home (well my temporary home at least). Thanksgiving holiday was great! It was nice to get away from here for a while. There are soo many (not too fond) memories here and it's hard coming back. I remind myself that I didn't do anything wrong, so running from here is not the answer, but it's just hard....too hard at times. I don't know anyone here (anymore anyways), so it makes the process much harder. I only have 2 more months until my lease is up and then I can relocate myself somewhere else and start fresh! Being hopeful anyway!! :)

The bright side of today~ Got back in the gym!!! It's really amazing how good working out makes you feel....even in the lowest of lows!! Finished puttin up all my Christmas decorations! I managed to put up my tree like 3 weeks ago and got all the inside decorations up, but today I put the lights up outside! I'm in the spirit for sure now!!! I love this time of year! Also tonight~7th Heaven and Prison Break are on!!! Finale of Prison Break....I'm way excited!

11/25/2005

Shopping day for most...hunting for me!!!

So I went hunting today! Yep...got up at approx. 5:15 a.m. and laid there for a while having an argument with myself as to whether I really wanted to go or not. I wake my brother (who is the lucky one who gets to go with me this year!!!), and my g-ma sees us off! We arrive at the farm about 6 am and get nestled into our "hut" of choice. Let me tell you that with all my experiences of hunting. I would have to say that an actual deer stand is much nicer (and might I add warmer), than an open tripod with brush all around. Brrrr. It's still pitch black outside and I can't see 2 feet in front of me...so the next obvious answer is to take a nap till daylight!!! And that my friend....is what we did!!
Ok so it's kinda light out (not near enough to see yet), but we sit up anyway. My bro has asthma/allergies etc. and apparently he was sniffling a bit. Even though we couldn't see we soon heard the snort of a deer (and might I add a very very close one!). Trent must have sniffled at the same time the deer did and he turned to me and asked..."Whoa...was that me???" I couldn't help but to bust out laughing....dang that was funny!!! I guess it scared off the deer cuz when daylight arrived...we didn't see anything :(
We stayed about an hour or so and I was stinkin hungry!! We were due to meet the rest of the fam at the farm around 8 to worm the goats (its really a family event!!!). It's now about 7:30 or a little after and we decide to book it to the local cafe in Evant, TX (you can blink and miss this town!!). We have to eat and run...literally...cuz we don't want everyone to know that we bailed out mid-hunting to go fill our so very needy bellies!!!
We made it back!!! Safe and sound!!......
So....no deer today but no complaints in the stomach department!!!

~till next time~
Nikki

11/24/2005

Turkey Day!!!

Despite all my drama....I do still have plenty of things to be thankful for! I have the best friends and family a girl for ask for! They have been there for me when I didn't think I would pull through! When I didn't think I could breathe another breath or when I couldn't muster up enough strength to get out of bed they were there! Even when I didn't think I was good enough they were there to tell me the truth (that I am!!) Thank you so much guys! You will forever hold a special place in my heart (what's left of it anyway...)

Today was sooo wonderful. Being surrounded by people I love and especially people who LOVE ME. There is such a comfort from that! God is soo good! Be thankful...even if your days are gloomy (trust me .... I know!)

So I guess tomorrow everyone will be hitting the stores...getting good deals...I however have done that once....and that was once tooo many!!! There are CRAZY people out there! I will be going hunting in the morning!! (way less stressful I can assure you!) Wish me luck!

11/23/2005

Kinda bummed today...

Just a little background (not nearly enough for you to understand), but I was supposed to attend a graduation ceremony today. Needless to say I didnt go....not because I didn't want to, but because apparently "he's just not that into me". UGH. How is it that you pour out your heart and soul to someone, give them everything that's within you, only to be shitted on in the end (or in my case the entire time)? One of lifes many wonders I guess?!?! It just has to get better...and dangit...if I have to be naive enough to believe that...I will! (I won't give up with out a fight!! You can bank on that!)

To brighten my day a little, my best friend came over and we rented the 10th season of friends!!! Let me just say that I am a little behind in getting addicted to this show (try 10 years!!! :) ) But I have to say I have been faithful in watching all 10 seasons within a month span!!! (Thanks to a special friend in China!!) Anyway...it didn't really turn out exactly how I hoped...but I guess since Rachel and Ross are together again....I'll make do ;) I do have to say that the show should still be on in my opinion...it was GREAT!!!

~ Till then~
Nikki

11/21/2005

Ready for the big time now!!!

Ok so....I went to WinStar Casino's last night!!! OMG...It was sooo much fun! Let me just say that we walked out of that joint with $578 profit!! All together my mom and I spent about 100 bucks (on our cards together). However dad put in just one dollar. That’s right...just 1 dollar and we won all of that on his card! Oh and get this...it was all on the penny slots!!! WOW!!! After mom and I dropped 100, we figured out that Dads card was hot and we stuck with that one! So it was kinda how I've always pictured it to be like, however, I was kinda upset that the slot machines didn’t pour out money when you win :( Not only did it not dish out the money (that I sooo won!), but it didnt even have a little lever for me to pull :( We got there about 9 and left around 2 (a.m.)!!! For it being all new to me though and my first time around, I guess I can't really complain! Now that I know it is only about an hour from my house...oh boy!!!! I can't wait to go back! Vegas....here I come!!! (hopefully sooner than later! :)

11/20/2005

Feelin lucky tonight!?!?

So my dad asked me if I wanted to make a trip to Oklahoma tonight to the WinStar Casino's with him and mom~ Now for a little background info... he promised to take me to Vegas when I turned 21. Needless to say I'm well into being 22 and still no sign of Vegas (I think this trip to Oklahoma is supposed to hold me over till he can get me there!! ;)) So the plans are to leave promptly at 6 and gamble till we just can't take it anymore! Wish me luck! I'm a first timer!!!! I'll keep you posted! :)

11/17/2005

In the 'Ville for a week or so...

Back in the 'Ville for the week and my mom desides she's ready to start working out. She wants me to work her out for the time that I'm home so I jump on the opportunity because I can't get to the gym for about a week and I need to workout too! I say "alright we are walking to the water tower! (note: it's only maybe a mile and a half there and then of course back again). Let me just tell you it took over an hour to walk there and back.....oh yes...that long. Not to mention it was FREEZING outside. I was numb and told her to get a move on it and run! WOW...that was funny. I think mainly because she had to pee too! If you could have seen this...you would have pee'd in your pants too!! :)
We finally get back to the house and I design a mini workout (squats, lunges, arms, etc.) I swear if I hear "are we done yet", after you asked to do this, I will pleasantly SCREAM!!!
It was extremely funny though. We laughed more than I think we have ever laughed! I do have to say that over a period of just a few days, mom pee'd in her pants (laughing so hard) more than any 2 year old would ever!!! :) (just kiddin mom!....love you!)